Toughest Day So Far

The post title just about says it all. Carrie is currently resting as peaceful as possible. This day two that she has not eaten or had anything to drink. The hospice nurse came by this morning and checked on her and Carrie asked what she is going to do since she can't eat or drink anything. Sadly the answer is nothing. The mass is pressing on her stomach so much that she cannot get anything down. Her current pain medicine schedule was 60MG morphine pill every 8 hours and she could take .5ML of the liquid morphine every 1 to 2 hours as needed for pain. While the nurse was she said that she was not comfortable and the one thing that she kept saying was the she didn't want to be miserable. Unfortunately the only way to get her comfortable is to put enough pain medicine in to keep her mentally "out of it". She said that would be fine and she has been able to talk to all of her family in the last couple of days. At 2:30 pm this afternoon we increased her liquid morphine to 1ML every two hours and that has seemed to make comfortable. She has lost the energy to be able to move any parts of her body. If you ask her a yes or no question, she is still able to comprehend and answer by nodding or shaking her head. Her speech is very weak and we have to listen very closely if she says anything. Our families are taking turns sitting with her.

It has been comforting for us to be able to sit around here at the house and talk about all of the fun times that everyone has had with Carrie. Probably the most talked about story is our 17 hour drive from Columbia, TN to Miami, FL just to get on a cruise ship. It could be a movie by itself. Comedy of course.

As always, please remember us and our families in your prayers. It has been a tough day with the toughest yet to come. We rejoice that Carrie is just waiting on the Lord to call her home. We expect that to be in the next couple of days given how her health has declined. But she is one tough cookie.

I am trying to keep the blog updated daily. I know that a lot of people use this and I appologize for the updates coming so late at night.

We love you all and appreaciate everything that you all have done for us,

Jason & Carrie